consuming too much, creating too little | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra


Since moving to another new office, it has been difficult to insert actual time to blog. The noise and hustle of working in a workshop are quite different compared to just an office where silence is somehow deafening. The blogging streak stopped. I lost touch of what to say and how to even come up with a decent blog post despite the possibility of making one at my boyfriend's place. 


So when the creating streak stopped, I also lost the urge to create content offline like writing my thoughts in a journal. For the past few weeks, I was busy consuming too much content from the online world. I'd take walks or do household chores while listening to podcasts. I'd fold clothes while watching Youtube videos I downloaded for offline watching. I'd visit blogs and read a post or two. I'd pin a lot of pictures on every board I have on Pinterest to manifest the life that I want without doing the necessary steps to achieve it. You may say that I was in a rotting phase but the other night, I treated myself with kindness and permitted myself to take things slowly. 


I didn't let myself be in a hurry to tick every possible thing that I can do within that night. When I arrived home from work, I ate a little healthy snack and took a walk while listening to a podcast. I usually listen to podcasts that are an hour long or a minimum of 30 minutes for every walk and when that happens, time flies so fast that I already earned more than a thousand steps that my body will thank me for. 


Every time I'd see journal prompts that are easy to do online, I'd save it on my phone and let the day went by but that night was different. I actually did some after writing my thoughts on work, things that stress the hell out of me, and whatever thought would come out. The journal prompt that I did that night was written in a notebook that my former manager gave me. It was Lang Leav's journal edition and it was a perfect thing to write on for a good start on a plan to actually sustain a journaling habit. So yeah, I keep two journals now. One huge pink hardbound journal in which I write anything and Lang Leav's notebook that I'm planning to write journal prompts inspired from the internet or maybe anything that fancies me to write about as long as I can carry it with me everywhere I go. 


A plan I thought about for my go, grow and glow journey is to develop habits that will make me feel good with my physical appearance regardless of the rolls or muscles but the mental aspect plays along with it. I don't want to exercise for vanity but for sanity and with this, journaling is also a form of mental exercise. To actually sit down and reflect on the day feels such a huge chore nowadays but it's also a treat which I did on the night I kept on mentioning here. 


One prompt I tried was to reflect on last month, April. I only wrote two but it felt so major in a way that writing two reflections was enough. 


  1. My definition of success is to live life peacefully. I don't have to be super rich but be financially stable to support my dream lifestyle. I am content with my relationship with others and myself. A life that will give me freedom and security that if something bad happens, it's just a bad day, not a bad life. 
  2. To feel and discover a path that there's something bigger than me. This something can be the Universe or God or whatever people call this energy but this is an essential something to depend on in life in order to move forward. 

Obviously, I am vomiting words here but I hope my reflections were able to suffice whatever I want to convey because I've been creating too little these days. 

  • What were your last month's reflections? 
  • What would you say about mine? 
  • Maybe you'd like to check on me here or treat me to a coffee here.

consuming too much, creating too little

Wednesday, May 12, 2021

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consuming too much, creating too little | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra


Since moving to another new office, it has been difficult to insert actual time to blog. The noise and hustle of working in a workshop are quite different compared to just an office where silence is somehow deafening. The blogging streak stopped. I lost touch of what to say and how to even come up with a decent blog post despite the possibility of making one at my boyfriend's place. 


So when the creating streak stopped, I also lost the urge to create content offline like writing my thoughts in a journal. For the past few weeks, I was busy consuming too much content from the online world. I'd take walks or do household chores while listening to podcasts. I'd fold clothes while watching Youtube videos I downloaded for offline watching. I'd visit blogs and read a post or two. I'd pin a lot of pictures on every board I have on Pinterest to manifest the life that I want without doing the necessary steps to achieve it. You may say that I was in a rotting phase but the other night, I treated myself with kindness and permitted myself to take things slowly. 


I didn't let myself be in a hurry to tick every possible thing that I can do within that night. When I arrived home from work, I ate a little healthy snack and took a walk while listening to a podcast. I usually listen to podcasts that are an hour long or a minimum of 30 minutes for every walk and when that happens, time flies so fast that I already earned more than a thousand steps that my body will thank me for. 


Every time I'd see journal prompts that are easy to do online, I'd save it on my phone and let the day went by but that night was different. I actually did some after writing my thoughts on work, things that stress the hell out of me, and whatever thought would come out. The journal prompt that I did that night was written in a notebook that my former manager gave me. It was Lang Leav's journal edition and it was a perfect thing to write on for a good start on a plan to actually sustain a journaling habit. So yeah, I keep two journals now. One huge pink hardbound journal in which I write anything and Lang Leav's notebook that I'm planning to write journal prompts inspired from the internet or maybe anything that fancies me to write about as long as I can carry it with me everywhere I go. 


A plan I thought about for my go, grow and glow journey is to develop habits that will make me feel good with my physical appearance regardless of the rolls or muscles but the mental aspect plays along with it. I don't want to exercise for vanity but for sanity and with this, journaling is also a form of mental exercise. To actually sit down and reflect on the day feels such a huge chore nowadays but it's also a treat which I did on the night I kept on mentioning here. 


One prompt I tried was to reflect on last month, April. I only wrote two but it felt so major in a way that writing two reflections was enough. 


  1. My definition of success is to live life peacefully. I don't have to be super rich but be financially stable to support my dream lifestyle. I am content with my relationship with others and myself. A life that will give me freedom and security that if something bad happens, it's just a bad day, not a bad life. 
  2. To feel and discover a path that there's something bigger than me. This something can be the Universe or God or whatever people call this energy but this is an essential something to depend on in life in order to move forward. 

Obviously, I am vomiting words here but I hope my reflections were able to suffice whatever I want to convey because I've been creating too little these days. 

  • What were your last month's reflections? 
  • What would you say about mine? 
  • Maybe you'd like to check on me here or treat me to a coffee here.

check-in no. 2 | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra


The blogging streak stopped since my supervisor and I moved to another new office and somehow, it was a mixed emotion of 'I should go back to blogging asap' and 'A little break won't hurt.' However, it hurt. I felt lost again. I felt that I was consuming too much and creating too little in this world so to make things easy, here I am, updating you on the easiest thing that I can come up with a discussion - my life. 


check-in no. 2 | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra


23rd monthsary


Da and I celebrated our 23rd monthsary last Saturday and next month, it'll be our second anniversary. As cliche as it may sound, but it is true, time flies so fast. When I think of our relationship back then on how it turned out from being friends to its current state, a lot has happened within a short period of time. We grew as individuals and as a couple throughout the relationship. I'm grateful for how blessed I am to be in a healthy relationship with this loving and caring guy. I am inspired to be a better person each day, not only for the benefit of myself but also for the benefit of our relationship. 


ko-fi


I joined the ko-fi community. I already knew about this when I was in high school still blogging on Tumblr but I wasn't interested in it. However, last Saturday, I thought maybe I should try this. So I signed up and shared my link with the public, and set up a goal. After less than an hour, I was surprised to receive a donation from a generous stranger with a note below. 

check-in no. 2 | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra

I couldn't believe it but someone sent me an unexpected amount to have a new laptop. It makes me happy that someone out there believes in my potential for something that I truly love doing. 

If you'd like to buy me a coffee, click here

check-in no. 2 | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra

a new journal


I received a journal from my former manager and it was and still is one of the best gifts I've received. After years of keeping it in a cabinet, I already decided what to write on it. I used it as a journal for my manifestations and short journal prompts. I get the journal prompts from Instagram and Pinterest. This is my way to take care of myself - to actually give time to sit down and reflect on life especially when I can't do any meditation. 

adulting is difficult. 


Adulting is such a bittersweet experience. It's sweet that I can already do the things I want to do without the need of my mom's help like I can already afford the basic necessities and sometimes, I get to spoil myself with things that I used to dream of. I can already afford stuff that an adult needs like life insurance, investments, and multiple savings accounts that serve different purposes. I am grateful for the growth I've come in my career like Excel has become an essential tool in my life that I'm still using even if it's not already work-related. However, I still have a long way to go. With all the moving from one office to another in the same company and to be with different colleagues, it was such a sweet walk in the park of realizing that I feel good to have come this far. I felt that I was contributing value to the company.

Today is payday and I was surprised by the amount that I have to pay for the electric bill. Ugh, this is one of the reasons why I hate summer here in the Philippines. It makes the situation hotter when I can't wear whatever I want to wear to make things a little bit comfortable in this heat at work. One of my dreams is to work in a company that would allow wearing whatever the employees want to wear. This is truly possible if I'm working from home or working freelance but it's neither. Anyway, it's payday and it's not great living from paycheck to paycheck but I have to look at the positive that I can pay the bills, eating healthy, drinking brewed coffee, and living a good life. 

I had this note posted on the side of my office computer and it says, "Remember, as long as you have a roof over your head, food in your belly, and your bills are consistently paid, you're not missing out on anything." With that, I am comforted. 

being a writer


I reread this blog post I made almost three years ago and it made me cry. It makes me happy how someone out there believes in you without a doubt. It's life-changing. 

How's your life lately?

check-in no. 2

Monday, May 10, 2021

check-in no. 2 | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra


The blogging streak stopped since my supervisor and I moved to another new office and somehow, it was a mixed emotion of 'I should go back to blogging asap' and 'A little break won't hurt.' However, it hurt. I felt lost again. I felt that I was consuming too much and creating too little in this world so to make things easy, here I am, updating you on the easiest thing that I can come up with a discussion - my life. 


check-in no. 2 | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra


23rd monthsary


Da and I celebrated our 23rd monthsary last Saturday and next month, it'll be our second anniversary. As cliche as it may sound, but it is true, time flies so fast. When I think of our relationship back then on how it turned out from being friends to its current state, a lot has happened within a short period of time. We grew as individuals and as a couple throughout the relationship. I'm grateful for how blessed I am to be in a healthy relationship with this loving and caring guy. I am inspired to be a better person each day, not only for the benefit of myself but also for the benefit of our relationship. 


ko-fi


I joined the ko-fi community. I already knew about this when I was in high school still blogging on Tumblr but I wasn't interested in it. However, last Saturday, I thought maybe I should try this. So I signed up and shared my link with the public, and set up a goal. After less than an hour, I was surprised to receive a donation from a generous stranger with a note below. 

check-in no. 2 | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra

I couldn't believe it but someone sent me an unexpected amount to have a new laptop. It makes me happy that someone out there believes in my potential for something that I truly love doing. 

If you'd like to buy me a coffee, click here

check-in no. 2 | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra

a new journal


I received a journal from my former manager and it was and still is one of the best gifts I've received. After years of keeping it in a cabinet, I already decided what to write on it. I used it as a journal for my manifestations and short journal prompts. I get the journal prompts from Instagram and Pinterest. This is my way to take care of myself - to actually give time to sit down and reflect on life especially when I can't do any meditation. 

adulting is difficult. 


Adulting is such a bittersweet experience. It's sweet that I can already do the things I want to do without the need of my mom's help like I can already afford the basic necessities and sometimes, I get to spoil myself with things that I used to dream of. I can already afford stuff that an adult needs like life insurance, investments, and multiple savings accounts that serve different purposes. I am grateful for the growth I've come in my career like Excel has become an essential tool in my life that I'm still using even if it's not already work-related. However, I still have a long way to go. With all the moving from one office to another in the same company and to be with different colleagues, it was such a sweet walk in the park of realizing that I feel good to have come this far. I felt that I was contributing value to the company.

Today is payday and I was surprised by the amount that I have to pay for the electric bill. Ugh, this is one of the reasons why I hate summer here in the Philippines. It makes the situation hotter when I can't wear whatever I want to wear to make things a little bit comfortable in this heat at work. One of my dreams is to work in a company that would allow wearing whatever the employees want to wear. This is truly possible if I'm working from home or working freelance but it's neither. Anyway, it's payday and it's not great living from paycheck to paycheck but I have to look at the positive that I can pay the bills, eating healthy, drinking brewed coffee, and living a good life. 

I had this note posted on the side of my office computer and it says, "Remember, as long as you have a roof over your head, food in your belly, and your bills are consistently paid, you're not missing out on anything." With that, I am comforted. 

being a writer


I reread this blog post I made almost three years ago and it made me cry. It makes me happy how someone out there believes in you without a doubt. It's life-changing. 

How's your life lately?
check-in no. 01 | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra


It's been months since I've updated the blog with what's happening in my life lately but it has been one of my tasks to actually make a series out of it but I don't know what title would totally fit in but then, one night after doing my usual night read, an idea came and here it is, my first ever checked in series. This is a good opportunity to actually check with one another on what's happening with our lives if that's something you'd like to share on the blog or via DM. 


So here it goes. 


Yoga


Yesterday was my 18th day of the 30-day yoga journey and so far, so good! I've mentioned before that I never imagined doing this but I never knew how therapeutic it actually is. Although, I knew that any form of exercise could be therapeutic especially with the happy hormones going active but I never actually imagined that doing yoga was a good awakening to my mind, body, and soul. There'd be times that I feel so contented and at peace with my life. 

Now, I can picture myself going to Bali attending those yoga classes. Haha! It's a huge wow for a change in lifestyle. However, I had a difficult time doing one pose because my arms were too weak to carry me but guess what, I didn't pressure myself to perfectly do it. I even took a video of myself looking like a frog doing it and planned on showing it to my mom and boyfriend of the progress I am doing on this journey. I am proud to have come this far especially it takes a lot of patience and determination to just show up on a slow practice. 


check-in no. 01 | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra

Work


I'm not particularly in love with my job but it doesn't mean that I hate it. I am thankful for the money that I earn from it because, despite the pandemic, I still have a job that can pay the bills and somehow, buy the things I want. 

We're currently in a transition phase within the department and the changes that I am facing will affect my career and I want everything to turn out good. Saying that I am looking forward to it is so positive that contrasts what I actually feel about it but I'm not dreading it. I'm grateful and blessed to have this new opportunity within a short period of time but still, I'm not excited nor avoiding it. It's just something that bounds to happen so if it happens, let it happen and I'll do the job because it's already an obligation that I am ready to take. You get me? 

Social media


Let's take the time to pause and congratulate me for deactivating my Facebook account for the nth time and so far, I haven't go back. My life has been peaceful and there was no urge to grab my phone and open the app constantly just because an Excel file is too slow to open. There were some temptations to reactivate it again like people talking about what this person posted online but if the thought of going back ever popped out of my mind, it'd be instantly blocked that it'd just be a waste of my time. 

Another achievement was deactivating my Twitter account, yay! It's been months that I haven't updated the account constantly and every time I'd visit it, it'd be overwhelming and toxic because of how saturated the platform already is and I never even look for the app since deactivating it so that's a huge game-changer for someone who had the account since high school. Have you experienced the Twitter era when there was still a tweet limit? Yup, that's how young I was back then. 

And since I'm no longer wasting my time scrolling mindlessly on social media, I have more time to invest in myself like giving more time to moving my body, doing the household chores, and reading a book. 

check-in no. 01 | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra

Last book, hoorah!


I am on the last book of the Harry Potter series and as an adult rereading her favorite childhood series, it's still exciting! Developing a reading habit was the best decision I've made as a kid. I'm more than halfway through the book and I'm both sad and happy about it because finally, I'll be able to finish the series again but then, I'm done with the series again. I think we've felt like this with a book or two. Mine was a series. Haha!

Netflix


I'm back on Netflix and I'm watching 'The Queen's Gambit'. Yeah, I know that I'm already late but every time something goes on trend or if it's being too overhyped by any social media platform I'm on, my interest in it decreases. I'm still on the second episode and if you're happy that I'm finally watching it, let me know. Haha! 

check-in no. 01 | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra


Guilt-Free Coffee


It feels so good to have guilt-free coffee. How guilt-free is this? I don't use any paper cups that would just turn into waste and I've read something online that paper cups aren't really good for the environment. Plus, it feels so satisfying to get back on my values on low-impact living. My conscience couldn't keep up with the number of cups I've accumulated with my take-out coffee. Actually, it was just two or three cups but I couldn't fully enjoy my coffee because of the waste so I bought a Kool collapsible cup that I could easily bring with me on the daily for any drink or food. At first, I was hesitant because I've to spend money on it and it'd be another addition to the things I own so I only have two choices to make which were 'Do not buy take out coffee' or 'Close an eye while drinking caffeine with guilt'. As someone who was always caffeinated since college, I can't do it and there'd be days that I can't bring my brewed coffee from home so yeah, I bought it on sale and since then, mornings spent having to-go coffee in a reusable cup has always been a good start of a workday! Yay!

Hey, what's up?

check-in no. 01

Wednesday, March 31, 2021

check-in no. 01 | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra


It's been months since I've updated the blog with what's happening in my life lately but it has been one of my tasks to actually make a series out of it but I don't know what title would totally fit in but then, one night after doing my usual night read, an idea came and here it is, my first ever checked in series. This is a good opportunity to actually check with one another on what's happening with our lives if that's something you'd like to share on the blog or via DM. 


So here it goes. 


Yoga


Yesterday was my 18th day of the 30-day yoga journey and so far, so good! I've mentioned before that I never imagined doing this but I never knew how therapeutic it actually is. Although, I knew that any form of exercise could be therapeutic especially with the happy hormones going active but I never actually imagined that doing yoga was a good awakening to my mind, body, and soul. There'd be times that I feel so contented and at peace with my life. 

Now, I can picture myself going to Bali attending those yoga classes. Haha! It's a huge wow for a change in lifestyle. However, I had a difficult time doing one pose because my arms were too weak to carry me but guess what, I didn't pressure myself to perfectly do it. I even took a video of myself looking like a frog doing it and planned on showing it to my mom and boyfriend of the progress I am doing on this journey. I am proud to have come this far especially it takes a lot of patience and determination to just show up on a slow practice. 


check-in no. 01 | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra

Work


I'm not particularly in love with my job but it doesn't mean that I hate it. I am thankful for the money that I earn from it because, despite the pandemic, I still have a job that can pay the bills and somehow, buy the things I want. 

We're currently in a transition phase within the department and the changes that I am facing will affect my career and I want everything to turn out good. Saying that I am looking forward to it is so positive that contrasts what I actually feel about it but I'm not dreading it. I'm grateful and blessed to have this new opportunity within a short period of time but still, I'm not excited nor avoiding it. It's just something that bounds to happen so if it happens, let it happen and I'll do the job because it's already an obligation that I am ready to take. You get me? 

Social media


Let's take the time to pause and congratulate me for deactivating my Facebook account for the nth time and so far, I haven't go back. My life has been peaceful and there was no urge to grab my phone and open the app constantly just because an Excel file is too slow to open. There were some temptations to reactivate it again like people talking about what this person posted online but if the thought of going back ever popped out of my mind, it'd be instantly blocked that it'd just be a waste of my time. 

Another achievement was deactivating my Twitter account, yay! It's been months that I haven't updated the account constantly and every time I'd visit it, it'd be overwhelming and toxic because of how saturated the platform already is and I never even look for the app since deactivating it so that's a huge game-changer for someone who had the account since high school. Have you experienced the Twitter era when there was still a tweet limit? Yup, that's how young I was back then. 

And since I'm no longer wasting my time scrolling mindlessly on social media, I have more time to invest in myself like giving more time to moving my body, doing the household chores, and reading a book. 

check-in no. 01 | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra

Last book, hoorah!


I am on the last book of the Harry Potter series and as an adult rereading her favorite childhood series, it's still exciting! Developing a reading habit was the best decision I've made as a kid. I'm more than halfway through the book and I'm both sad and happy about it because finally, I'll be able to finish the series again but then, I'm done with the series again. I think we've felt like this with a book or two. Mine was a series. Haha!

Netflix


I'm back on Netflix and I'm watching 'The Queen's Gambit'. Yeah, I know that I'm already late but every time something goes on trend or if it's being too overhyped by any social media platform I'm on, my interest in it decreases. I'm still on the second episode and if you're happy that I'm finally watching it, let me know. Haha! 

check-in no. 01 | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra


Guilt-Free Coffee


It feels so good to have guilt-free coffee. How guilt-free is this? I don't use any paper cups that would just turn into waste and I've read something online that paper cups aren't really good for the environment. Plus, it feels so satisfying to get back on my values on low-impact living. My conscience couldn't keep up with the number of cups I've accumulated with my take-out coffee. Actually, it was just two or three cups but I couldn't fully enjoy my coffee because of the waste so I bought a Kool collapsible cup that I could easily bring with me on the daily for any drink or food. At first, I was hesitant because I've to spend money on it and it'd be another addition to the things I own so I only have two choices to make which were 'Do not buy take out coffee' or 'Close an eye while drinking caffeine with guilt'. As someone who was always caffeinated since college, I can't do it and there'd be days that I can't bring my brewed coffee from home so yeah, I bought it on sale and since then, mornings spent having to-go coffee in a reusable cup has always been a good start of a workday! Yay!

Hey, what's up?
habits i wanna break by Augustin Ra

Developing good habits has been one of my life's tasks and as someone who's tackling adulthood one day at a time, it's a struggle to develop good habits especially sustaining them but most of all, it's much more difficult to break bad habits. 


Some habits are already innate and we sort of classify them as our default actions. Some are to be developed for how many days. As much as I want to try to make this blog as positive as it could be, that would be a huge lie of my personality because I don't live a perfect life. I also have bad days. 


So the following are the habits that I want to break: 


duh, online shopping. 


When the quarantine started, it became a huge relief on my part that I won't be spending a lot on food, transportation, and miscellaneous. I felt that I'd be this adult that would only focus on the bills and through this, I was able to save more. However, as months passed by, I gave in. I checked out an item, received it, and was so happy with my purchase that turned into a cycle of happiness and misery at the same time. Although the majority of my purchases since this pandemic started went into good use, I can't deny that how I wish I had this self-control and discipline not to check out an item. Yes, it became an addiction. 

Right now, the only parcel that I'm waiting for is a brand new Fjallraven Kanken No. 2 backpack, and oh well, there won't be any regrets because it has been a dream bag and I'm more of a backpack kind of girl. I'm hoping that this would be my last huge purchase for myself this year. 

One of my solutions to this is to think of the hours I actually worked to earn the amount I have to pay for an item, service, or whatever it is. Good idea, right? 

scrolling mindlessly on social media


Scrolling is the new smoking. Ugh. 

How many times did I catch myself going back to the reality that I'm in this deep world of scrolling mindlessly on social media? Lots! Just because I don't have anything to do. This is why I like planning my day and being productive as much as possible so I won't have to pick up my phone and just go from one app to another. 

Plus, without careful usage of these socials, it can seriously harm my mental health. This is when detox is a must. I'm planning to delete my Twitter account. It no longer serves me. I felt that it's a platform that drains me so much because of these people who are so woke to pick a fight on everything even if you're just eating a banana. I don't know why I said about the banana thing but you get me, right? Some Twitter peeps would just call you out on a little thing and cancel you for nothing. I haven't experienced that but seeing this kind of behavior is so toxic. 

Why won't they put their energy into something else, huh?

not getting enough sleep


I'm the kind of person who doesn't get enough sleep but still able to wake up early, not be late on anything, and function as a human. I really do want to break this because I'm on my journey of self-love and I want to nourish my body with enough rest and a good night's sleep. This is why I'm trying my best to do everything on my to-do list by the time I arrive home so I don't have to beat myself up for not having enough hours in a day. But then, my usual day would be taking a rest when I arrive home, scroll mindlessly on my phone, and do the things I need to do. Basically, I wasted maybe an hour or two. 

Acknowledging these bad habits that I have was actually good for me so I know what I'd focus on improving from now on. So far, these are the bad habits that I can remember. 

What are yours? Were you able to break one and how did you do it? 

breaking bad

Thursday, March 25, 2021

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habits i wanna break by Augustin Ra

Developing good habits has been one of my life's tasks and as someone who's tackling adulthood one day at a time, it's a struggle to develop good habits especially sustaining them but most of all, it's much more difficult to break bad habits. 


Some habits are already innate and we sort of classify them as our default actions. Some are to be developed for how many days. As much as I want to try to make this blog as positive as it could be, that would be a huge lie of my personality because I don't live a perfect life. I also have bad days. 


So the following are the habits that I want to break: 


duh, online shopping. 


When the quarantine started, it became a huge relief on my part that I won't be spending a lot on food, transportation, and miscellaneous. I felt that I'd be this adult that would only focus on the bills and through this, I was able to save more. However, as months passed by, I gave in. I checked out an item, received it, and was so happy with my purchase that turned into a cycle of happiness and misery at the same time. Although the majority of my purchases since this pandemic started went into good use, I can't deny that how I wish I had this self-control and discipline not to check out an item. Yes, it became an addiction. 

Right now, the only parcel that I'm waiting for is a brand new Fjallraven Kanken No. 2 backpack, and oh well, there won't be any regrets because it has been a dream bag and I'm more of a backpack kind of girl. I'm hoping that this would be my last huge purchase for myself this year. 

One of my solutions to this is to think of the hours I actually worked to earn the amount I have to pay for an item, service, or whatever it is. Good idea, right? 

scrolling mindlessly on social media


Scrolling is the new smoking. Ugh. 

How many times did I catch myself going back to the reality that I'm in this deep world of scrolling mindlessly on social media? Lots! Just because I don't have anything to do. This is why I like planning my day and being productive as much as possible so I won't have to pick up my phone and just go from one app to another. 

Plus, without careful usage of these socials, it can seriously harm my mental health. This is when detox is a must. I'm planning to delete my Twitter account. It no longer serves me. I felt that it's a platform that drains me so much because of these people who are so woke to pick a fight on everything even if you're just eating a banana. I don't know why I said about the banana thing but you get me, right? Some Twitter peeps would just call you out on a little thing and cancel you for nothing. I haven't experienced that but seeing this kind of behavior is so toxic. 

Why won't they put their energy into something else, huh?

not getting enough sleep


I'm the kind of person who doesn't get enough sleep but still able to wake up early, not be late on anything, and function as a human. I really do want to break this because I'm on my journey of self-love and I want to nourish my body with enough rest and a good night's sleep. This is why I'm trying my best to do everything on my to-do list by the time I arrive home so I don't have to beat myself up for not having enough hours in a day. But then, my usual day would be taking a rest when I arrive home, scroll mindlessly on my phone, and do the things I need to do. Basically, I wasted maybe an hour or two. 

Acknowledging these bad habits that I have was actually good for me so I know what I'd focus on improving from now on. So far, these are the bad habits that I can remember. 

What are yours? Were you able to break one and how did you do it? 
15 bookish facts about me | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra

I had a difficult time falling asleep last night. My brain was bombarded with thoughts of my life being a bookworm and since I've been thinking about it, might as well, share it here. When I was a kid, I never imagined myself reading a lot especially books with no pictures. Haha. But then, it has always been the default of a child to be interested in books with pictures, especially colored ones. Years went by and here I am, a self-proclaimed caffeinated book junkie and I am proud of that. 


1. I was fond of reading the 'I Wonder Why' set when I was a kid. 


I remembered reading these books every day because it has been a routine in the house to let me read something to develop the habit of studying. I didn't feel that it was a chore because I was also interested to learn and see the colored pictures. My favorite topic from this set was Egypt and until now, I have an interest in this country. 


Years later, I discovered through my father that my name originated from the Egyptian Sun God, Ra. 


2. I had my first set of Harry Potter books (#1-4) when I was probably six years old. 


My mom bought this set along with the 'I Wonder Why' and I questioned her taste in books because it doesn't have pictures in it but I used to play these books and pretend that I was witch without knowing that the books I was playing with were about witches, wizards, and magic. It has been my childhood favorite. 


3. I've read my first novel at age 10.


My mom arrived home from a trip and she brought two novels. I was hooked with James Patterson's Sail and was able to finish it in less than a week. What happened to the other novel? I wasn't interested in it because it was a science fiction and gave it to a classmate in high school who liked the genre. I don't have the copy of the first novel I mentioned because I lent it to someone last 2018 and he hasn't returned the book yet. 

4. I used to read a novel per day. 


In high school, I had this streak in which I can read a book per day and I haven't noticed that until the librarian noticed how a fast reader I was so on that very day, she stamped a 24-hour deadline on the book I borrowed. Oh well, unfortunately, I wasn't able to finish it right away. I guess it was the pressure but I can still remember that day clearly, I was pretty busy in class and wasn't able to read. It was no longer fun. 

How old am I during these times? 13! 

5. I wrecked my eyes through reading. 


I became a 4-eyed person when I was 16 and I'm already 23 so do the math. I'd hear from colleagues that I'm too young to have blurry vision and maybe the cause was my usage of technology but nope, I used to read in a dark corner of my room the whole day. Back then, it was okay for me as long as I can still read and I just realized that seeing things from a distance was getting difficult. At first, my mom wouldn't believe me because I'm still young so we had an eye check-up, and guess what, both of us have blurry vision. Plus, it's in the genes. 

6. Mom, the influencer. 


I wasn't a bookworm when I was a kid. Yeah, I'd read but I couldn't call myself a bookworm at that time. So how did I develop the love for the printed word? By having a mom who would discuss the Harry Potter books with me and I couldn't contribute anything to the discussion so I got curious and started reading it. From that day on, I became a Potterhead. Thanks, mom!

One of my goals if ever I become a mom is to let my kids see me reading because in some way, they'll copy me and reading is such a good drug. *winks*

7. Being fortunate in unfortunate circumstances


I grew up in a province that doesn't have a bookstore but I was able to read more novels by borrowing books from people of all ages. I guess this is how I was able to deal with different genres. After finishing my studies in high school, we moved to another province that doesn't have a bookstore. It was only years later that I was able to discover local stores selling a mix of brand new and secondhand books. Anyway, so during that time, the possible thing that I could have a chance to read a novel was ordering it through Book Depository, borrowing books from the school library, and downloading e-books. 

8. I used to do book reviews. 


I used to have a blog on Tumblr about my life and book reviews. Every time I'd finish a book, I'd post a review about it. Through that, I was able to turn my blog into what I was dreaming of what a blog should be especially I follow blogs with the same niche. In my third year of college, a fellow bibliophile sent me a message asking what were my preferred genres and the address of where to send the books she'll be giving me. She was giving me books because I inspired her through my blog and I never knew that someone appreciated my thoughts and writings. One of the things that I miss on Tumblr is the appreciation that I'd receive from time to time that the online space that I established as an escape inspired them. 

Do I have any plans on making book reviews in the future? Yes. I am slowly trying to compose my thoughts and make them into solid reviews just like old times. *fingers crossed*

9. I read them first. 


My college best friend, Lyka, would receive books from her boyfriend or from anyone and I'd read the books first. After reading, I'd tell her my thoughts about it. I'd judge it and that's how she decides if she's going to read it or not. I weigh both the good and the bad of each book she lent me. 

10. Ask Ra. 


I had guy friends in college that would ask me what books to buy for their girlfriends. I had college friends who would ask me what e-book reader is best to use. I had friends who would ask me what to read and what are my thoughts about it without spoiling them. 

15 bookish facts about me | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra

11. Penguin


I had this huge obsession with buying any book that I could find that was published by Penguin Random House

12. Career


I've always wanted to be a librarian so I could be surrounded by silence and books. I also have the opportunity to read more of both old and newly published books. Can someone hire me to read a book the whole day? 

13. Minimalism


I used to own more than a hundred books composed of novels and autobiographies. The majority of them were read and obviously, my to-be-read list is pretty long. However, due to minimalism, I gave away some of the books I've already read and had no plans to keep because I wanted them to be read and touched by many instead of collecting dust. I think the purpose of the book ceases to exist when it's just being kept on a shelf. 

14. Such a dream


I've always dreamt of having a Kindle and received one from my boyfriend on my birthday last year. Yay! I cried. Every time I'd read a book on my Kindle, it'd remind me of how loving and supportive my boyfriend is so I could read more. When I started working in the corporate world, I had less time to read and it was such a struggle and painful that sometimes, I'd cry and tell him that I wanted to read so bad but I was always exhausted or there was a reason on why I can't do it. If I can remember it correctly, I cried happy tears twice because of books. Obviously. First, he surprised me with a set of Dan Brown's books and his reason was "just because". Second, the Kindle. 

15. Grateful 


I used to hide the fact that I was a bookworm. I thought that people would find me weird and nerdy which is true the majority of the time but meeting people who have the same interests as mine which is reading a lot made me open to the fact that I shouldn't be ashamed of it. As a bookworm, we hold great power through knowledge and no one should belittle us because not all people have the patience to read a book. Aside from traveling, reading makes us richer. I always see the printed word as an investment. 

I am grateful to those who lent and gave me books and even discussed the printed word with me in the past because, in one way or another, you contributed a percentage of who and what I am right now. 

I enjoyed oversharing these facts and maybe I'd share more next time. Haha! What are your bookish facts? 

15 bookish facts about me

Wednesday, March 17, 2021

15 bookish facts about me | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra

I had a difficult time falling asleep last night. My brain was bombarded with thoughts of my life being a bookworm and since I've been thinking about it, might as well, share it here. When I was a kid, I never imagined myself reading a lot especially books with no pictures. Haha. But then, it has always been the default of a child to be interested in books with pictures, especially colored ones. Years went by and here I am, a self-proclaimed caffeinated book junkie and I am proud of that. 


1. I was fond of reading the 'I Wonder Why' set when I was a kid. 


I remembered reading these books every day because it has been a routine in the house to let me read something to develop the habit of studying. I didn't feel that it was a chore because I was also interested to learn and see the colored pictures. My favorite topic from this set was Egypt and until now, I have an interest in this country. 


Years later, I discovered through my father that my name originated from the Egyptian Sun God, Ra. 


2. I had my first set of Harry Potter books (#1-4) when I was probably six years old. 


My mom bought this set along with the 'I Wonder Why' and I questioned her taste in books because it doesn't have pictures in it but I used to play these books and pretend that I was witch without knowing that the books I was playing with were about witches, wizards, and magic. It has been my childhood favorite. 


3. I've read my first novel at age 10.


My mom arrived home from a trip and she brought two novels. I was hooked with James Patterson's Sail and was able to finish it in less than a week. What happened to the other novel? I wasn't interested in it because it was a science fiction and gave it to a classmate in high school who liked the genre. I don't have the copy of the first novel I mentioned because I lent it to someone last 2018 and he hasn't returned the book yet. 

4. I used to read a novel per day. 


In high school, I had this streak in which I can read a book per day and I haven't noticed that until the librarian noticed how a fast reader I was so on that very day, she stamped a 24-hour deadline on the book I borrowed. Oh well, unfortunately, I wasn't able to finish it right away. I guess it was the pressure but I can still remember that day clearly, I was pretty busy in class and wasn't able to read. It was no longer fun. 

How old am I during these times? 13! 

5. I wrecked my eyes through reading. 


I became a 4-eyed person when I was 16 and I'm already 23 so do the math. I'd hear from colleagues that I'm too young to have blurry vision and maybe the cause was my usage of technology but nope, I used to read in a dark corner of my room the whole day. Back then, it was okay for me as long as I can still read and I just realized that seeing things from a distance was getting difficult. At first, my mom wouldn't believe me because I'm still young so we had an eye check-up, and guess what, both of us have blurry vision. Plus, it's in the genes. 

6. Mom, the influencer. 


I wasn't a bookworm when I was a kid. Yeah, I'd read but I couldn't call myself a bookworm at that time. So how did I develop the love for the printed word? By having a mom who would discuss the Harry Potter books with me and I couldn't contribute anything to the discussion so I got curious and started reading it. From that day on, I became a Potterhead. Thanks, mom!

One of my goals if ever I become a mom is to let my kids see me reading because in some way, they'll copy me and reading is such a good drug. *winks*

7. Being fortunate in unfortunate circumstances


I grew up in a province that doesn't have a bookstore but I was able to read more novels by borrowing books from people of all ages. I guess this is how I was able to deal with different genres. After finishing my studies in high school, we moved to another province that doesn't have a bookstore. It was only years later that I was able to discover local stores selling a mix of brand new and secondhand books. Anyway, so during that time, the possible thing that I could have a chance to read a novel was ordering it through Book Depository, borrowing books from the school library, and downloading e-books. 

8. I used to do book reviews. 


I used to have a blog on Tumblr about my life and book reviews. Every time I'd finish a book, I'd post a review about it. Through that, I was able to turn my blog into what I was dreaming of what a blog should be especially I follow blogs with the same niche. In my third year of college, a fellow bibliophile sent me a message asking what were my preferred genres and the address of where to send the books she'll be giving me. She was giving me books because I inspired her through my blog and I never knew that someone appreciated my thoughts and writings. One of the things that I miss on Tumblr is the appreciation that I'd receive from time to time that the online space that I established as an escape inspired them. 

Do I have any plans on making book reviews in the future? Yes. I am slowly trying to compose my thoughts and make them into solid reviews just like old times. *fingers crossed*

9. I read them first. 


My college best friend, Lyka, would receive books from her boyfriend or from anyone and I'd read the books first. After reading, I'd tell her my thoughts about it. I'd judge it and that's how she decides if she's going to read it or not. I weigh both the good and the bad of each book she lent me. 

10. Ask Ra. 


I had guy friends in college that would ask me what books to buy for their girlfriends. I had college friends who would ask me what e-book reader is best to use. I had friends who would ask me what to read and what are my thoughts about it without spoiling them. 

15 bookish facts about me | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra

11. Penguin


I had this huge obsession with buying any book that I could find that was published by Penguin Random House

12. Career


I've always wanted to be a librarian so I could be surrounded by silence and books. I also have the opportunity to read more of both old and newly published books. Can someone hire me to read a book the whole day? 

13. Minimalism


I used to own more than a hundred books composed of novels and autobiographies. The majority of them were read and obviously, my to-be-read list is pretty long. However, due to minimalism, I gave away some of the books I've already read and had no plans to keep because I wanted them to be read and touched by many instead of collecting dust. I think the purpose of the book ceases to exist when it's just being kept on a shelf. 

14. Such a dream


I've always dreamt of having a Kindle and received one from my boyfriend on my birthday last year. Yay! I cried. Every time I'd read a book on my Kindle, it'd remind me of how loving and supportive my boyfriend is so I could read more. When I started working in the corporate world, I had less time to read and it was such a struggle and painful that sometimes, I'd cry and tell him that I wanted to read so bad but I was always exhausted or there was a reason on why I can't do it. If I can remember it correctly, I cried happy tears twice because of books. Obviously. First, he surprised me with a set of Dan Brown's books and his reason was "just because". Second, the Kindle. 

15. Grateful 


I used to hide the fact that I was a bookworm. I thought that people would find me weird and nerdy which is true the majority of the time but meeting people who have the same interests as mine which is reading a lot made me open to the fact that I shouldn't be ashamed of it. As a bookworm, we hold great power through knowledge and no one should belittle us because not all people have the patience to read a book. Aside from traveling, reading makes us richer. I always see the printed word as an investment. 

I am grateful to those who lent and gave me books and even discussed the printed word with me in the past because, in one way or another, you contributed a percentage of who and what I am right now. 

I enjoyed oversharing these facts and maybe I'd share more next time. Haha! What are your bookish facts? 
Clickies 04 | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra

Hi! 

We're back with another post of the Clickies series. This category on the blog discusses the links that tickled my interest. These posts, podcasts, or whatever link it is are worth discussing, giving a chance to read or listen to, and may fall into a category of fun or informative. Whatever it is, I hope these links will help you to be more open with certain topics, or maybe come with the realization that we have the same sense of humor and interests, or maybe not. 

Potterless


One time I was already tired of listening to self-help podcasts on Spotify and chose the entertainment category and found this podcast about a grown adult reading the Harry Potter series for the first time. This was a shock to me because I was assuming that the majority of the population around the world has a Harry Potter childhood especially for someone living in the US or UK, right? 

I had my first four books of the HP series when I was a kid. I think I was five years old and I had no idea about Harry Potter at that time. I can remember that I used to play with these books and pretend that I was a witch without thinking that the books I was using for fun have wizards, witches, and magic on the plot. Years later, I saw my mom reading these books and talking about them to me and I couldn't contribute to the discussion. That's when I decided to pick up a book and read it and kids, that's when I became a Potter fan. 

So if you haven't read the series, why? What are you doing with your life? Haha. But really, you might want to try listening to Potterless. It's funny and you'll see a glimpse of what is it like to be living in the wizarding world. 

If you're someone who read and watched the series, oh well, it's fun listening to someone who has no idea what actually happened in the books and would just rely on movies. But of course, along with the episodes, you'd hear him talk about the chapters and realize that some scenes weren't featured on the movie which could've been featured to make it more entertaining, and listening to this channel while at work makes the boring hours bearable. 

Clickies 04 | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra

On Being Vulnerable


This is a blog post from Elise of Into Solarium and god, this made me miss the good old days on Tumblr when you can pour your heart out without being judged nor canceled. These were the years when people discover your blog from the depths of the internet that they'd found you as someone cool and artsy. In conclusion, it seems that blogging in the past was more genuine compared to now because back then, based on my experience, it wasn't all curated. Everything was a huge kind of a beautiful mess of art, emotions, and thoughts. Right now, we're trying to be all perfect without thinking that we're also looking for this genuine openness and vulnerability. 

However, it doesn't mean that I only consider blog posts that aren't the 'good vibes only type' as genuine. As a reader, we could easily feel and distinguish whether a particular blog tickles your fancy and sort those that won't pass our standards. Since the pandemic started, we've consumed more of the internet whereabouts and whatnots compared to pre-covid. We've been obliged to stay at home and due to the countless opportunities on the internet, we can consume almost everything that it could offer. Just imagine living in this kind of situation back then when our form of entertainment would be a game of snake on our Nokia 3315.  Kinda insane, huh? Due to this mindless scrolling, it makes us think that social media is the real world when it's the exact opposite. We forget to remind ourselves that we choose what we want to post and share to the world that would lead to societal pressure of having a good life. 

Hence, we forget to actually have a human connection despite having an internet connection 24/7. 

Let's talk.

  • So obviously, blog hopping and listening to podcasts are my ways to survive the day especially during mundane hours. How do you survive yours? 
  • What's your relationship with social media? How do you use it for genuine human connection? 
  • What podcasts have you been listening to lately? 
  • I want to watch or listen to the full interview of Meghan Markle and Oprah but damn, I couldn't find a full video of it. Send help!

Clickies 04

Thursday, March 11, 2021

Clickies 04 | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra

Hi! 

We're back with another post of the Clickies series. This category on the blog discusses the links that tickled my interest. These posts, podcasts, or whatever link it is are worth discussing, giving a chance to read or listen to, and may fall into a category of fun or informative. Whatever it is, I hope these links will help you to be more open with certain topics, or maybe come with the realization that we have the same sense of humor and interests, or maybe not. 

Potterless


One time I was already tired of listening to self-help podcasts on Spotify and chose the entertainment category and found this podcast about a grown adult reading the Harry Potter series for the first time. This was a shock to me because I was assuming that the majority of the population around the world has a Harry Potter childhood especially for someone living in the US or UK, right? 

I had my first four books of the HP series when I was a kid. I think I was five years old and I had no idea about Harry Potter at that time. I can remember that I used to play with these books and pretend that I was a witch without thinking that the books I was using for fun have wizards, witches, and magic on the plot. Years later, I saw my mom reading these books and talking about them to me and I couldn't contribute to the discussion. That's when I decided to pick up a book and read it and kids, that's when I became a Potter fan. 

So if you haven't read the series, why? What are you doing with your life? Haha. But really, you might want to try listening to Potterless. It's funny and you'll see a glimpse of what is it like to be living in the wizarding world. 

If you're someone who read and watched the series, oh well, it's fun listening to someone who has no idea what actually happened in the books and would just rely on movies. But of course, along with the episodes, you'd hear him talk about the chapters and realize that some scenes weren't featured on the movie which could've been featured to make it more entertaining, and listening to this channel while at work makes the boring hours bearable. 

Clickies 04 | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra

On Being Vulnerable


This is a blog post from Elise of Into Solarium and god, this made me miss the good old days on Tumblr when you can pour your heart out without being judged nor canceled. These were the years when people discover your blog from the depths of the internet that they'd found you as someone cool and artsy. In conclusion, it seems that blogging in the past was more genuine compared to now because back then, based on my experience, it wasn't all curated. Everything was a huge kind of a beautiful mess of art, emotions, and thoughts. Right now, we're trying to be all perfect without thinking that we're also looking for this genuine openness and vulnerability. 

However, it doesn't mean that I only consider blog posts that aren't the 'good vibes only type' as genuine. As a reader, we could easily feel and distinguish whether a particular blog tickles your fancy and sort those that won't pass our standards. Since the pandemic started, we've consumed more of the internet whereabouts and whatnots compared to pre-covid. We've been obliged to stay at home and due to the countless opportunities on the internet, we can consume almost everything that it could offer. Just imagine living in this kind of situation back then when our form of entertainment would be a game of snake on our Nokia 3315.  Kinda insane, huh? Due to this mindless scrolling, it makes us think that social media is the real world when it's the exact opposite. We forget to remind ourselves that we choose what we want to post and share to the world that would lead to societal pressure of having a good life. 

Hence, we forget to actually have a human connection despite having an internet connection 24/7. 

Let's talk.

  • So obviously, blog hopping and listening to podcasts are my ways to survive the day especially during mundane hours. How do you survive yours? 
  • What's your relationship with social media? How do you use it for genuine human connection? 
  • What podcasts have you been listening to lately? 
  • I want to watch or listen to the full interview of Meghan Markle and Oprah but damn, I couldn't find a full video of it. Send help!
yoga-na do it | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra

Last Sunday, I planned on downloading YT videos related to fitness that I can do at home and I thought maybe I should try yoga after watching Maxine's videos of her self-improvement journey. Yoga has always fascinated me. The calm and patience it takes to pose, breathe, and stretch is really something, and the benefits along with it like mindfulness, serenity, and the wonders it could do to the mind and body. 

So yesterday was my first day of a 30-day yoga journey and a little background about myself and the fitness journey I've been into is that I like anything that would make my body move and make my happy hormones go active. I love anything that would make me grow and my body would benefit a lot from so trying out yoga despite the lack of patience is something that I'm willing to try and I have this hypothesis that maybe, just maybe, yoga is really for me. Maybe this will be a journey not only for my body but also for the mind to teach me to be calm and patient despite the circumstances. 

There are plenty of benefits to doing yoga and the top reason why I want to do this is self-care. Now that I'm in my 20s and being in a healthy relationship with my significant other, wanting to improve myself for the better has always been such a dreamy goal. When you love someone and being loved in return in a healthy way, it makes you fall in love with yourself, too. Don't get me wrong, though. When I was still single, I was also on a self-love journey, getting to know more of myself, and trying to be better every day so when I fall in love, there won't be any mess with the relationship because of my issues. However, this isn't a perfect world, I'm still struggling with this self-love thing but having a partner that supports you to be someone who you're ought to be is such a huge blessing and I don't want to waste this opportunity so, in the long run, I won't be dealing with any issues that may cause trauma to anyone especially with building a family. 

I was pretty excited about this journey but at the same time, kind of nervous about what to do because I'm not flexible. That's why I prefer lifting weights and doing cardio as sweaty activities but oh boy, I never knew that I'd also sweat a lot during the yoga session. I could feel pain in stretching my body and at the same time, I feel relaxed that my body needed this. It deserved this. The breathing exercise was a struggle. I couldn't do it in a timely manner but I was trying my best not to pressure myself to do it perfectly. I'd remind myself that I have to be gentle with this situation especially since this is my first time and that my body isn't used to it. 

Along the way, I was getting the hang of it despite the shaking and painful stretching. As someone who wants everything to be done right away, yoga is quite the exact opposite. I can't just finish the session in a short period of time and be all sweaty and breathless. It takes time to even reached the peak and there were times that I'd yawn and feel sleepy which led me to the realization that I have to do my cardio and HIIT body workout before doing this. 

Is it worth the try? When I ended the session by whispering 'Namaste' in a prayer position, I felt light and relaxed. So far, yes, it is. I felt good and gentle towards myself. I'm not sure what kind of reasoning is behind this gentle aura that was caused by yoga but it was indeed worth it. How would I sustain this activity? I can picture myself not doing this on a daily basis because there are days that I'd stay at my boyfriend's place to spend time with him so those days are considered to be as rest days. Since yoga is a gentle activity, I'd treat myself with the gentleness it deserves and count the days that I'd able to do it until I can reap the fruits of this journey. 

We'll learn more of this journey as time passes by but for now, let my excitement of doing something new for my mind and body be the start of a slow and conscious living. If not, at least, I tried. 

yoga-na do it

Tuesday, March 9, 2021

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yoga-na do it | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra

Last Sunday, I planned on downloading YT videos related to fitness that I can do at home and I thought maybe I should try yoga after watching Maxine's videos of her self-improvement journey. Yoga has always fascinated me. The calm and patience it takes to pose, breathe, and stretch is really something, and the benefits along with it like mindfulness, serenity, and the wonders it could do to the mind and body. 

So yesterday was my first day of a 30-day yoga journey and a little background about myself and the fitness journey I've been into is that I like anything that would make my body move and make my happy hormones go active. I love anything that would make me grow and my body would benefit a lot from so trying out yoga despite the lack of patience is something that I'm willing to try and I have this hypothesis that maybe, just maybe, yoga is really for me. Maybe this will be a journey not only for my body but also for the mind to teach me to be calm and patient despite the circumstances. 

There are plenty of benefits to doing yoga and the top reason why I want to do this is self-care. Now that I'm in my 20s and being in a healthy relationship with my significant other, wanting to improve myself for the better has always been such a dreamy goal. When you love someone and being loved in return in a healthy way, it makes you fall in love with yourself, too. Don't get me wrong, though. When I was still single, I was also on a self-love journey, getting to know more of myself, and trying to be better every day so when I fall in love, there won't be any mess with the relationship because of my issues. However, this isn't a perfect world, I'm still struggling with this self-love thing but having a partner that supports you to be someone who you're ought to be is such a huge blessing and I don't want to waste this opportunity so, in the long run, I won't be dealing with any issues that may cause trauma to anyone especially with building a family. 

I was pretty excited about this journey but at the same time, kind of nervous about what to do because I'm not flexible. That's why I prefer lifting weights and doing cardio as sweaty activities but oh boy, I never knew that I'd also sweat a lot during the yoga session. I could feel pain in stretching my body and at the same time, I feel relaxed that my body needed this. It deserved this. The breathing exercise was a struggle. I couldn't do it in a timely manner but I was trying my best not to pressure myself to do it perfectly. I'd remind myself that I have to be gentle with this situation especially since this is my first time and that my body isn't used to it. 

Along the way, I was getting the hang of it despite the shaking and painful stretching. As someone who wants everything to be done right away, yoga is quite the exact opposite. I can't just finish the session in a short period of time and be all sweaty and breathless. It takes time to even reached the peak and there were times that I'd yawn and feel sleepy which led me to the realization that I have to do my cardio and HIIT body workout before doing this. 

Is it worth the try? When I ended the session by whispering 'Namaste' in a prayer position, I felt light and relaxed. So far, yes, it is. I felt good and gentle towards myself. I'm not sure what kind of reasoning is behind this gentle aura that was caused by yoga but it was indeed worth it. How would I sustain this activity? I can picture myself not doing this on a daily basis because there are days that I'd stay at my boyfriend's place to spend time with him so those days are considered to be as rest days. Since yoga is a gentle activity, I'd treat myself with the gentleness it deserves and count the days that I'd able to do it until I can reap the fruits of this journey. 

We'll learn more of this journey as time passes by but for now, let my excitement of doing something new for my mind and body be the start of a slow and conscious living. If not, at least, I tried. 
Trying To Pick It Up Again | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra


As a bibliophile, people assume that we never get tired of reading, we never lose touch with the printed word, and it sucks how these assumptions could turn out to be the opposite for quite some time. It's such a nightmare to be in a reading slump. The uncertainty on how it happened demotivates me more as to why I'm in such a state. I couldn't remember when I lost motivation on reading. A novel per day, wow! That's how fast I used to read but of course, I try not to pressure myself on reading a novel per day but what I wanted is to bring my old self back into this habit. 


So lately, I've been trying my best to read as slowly as possible despite the 30 books I set for myself on Goodreads. Damn. I know, I know, what a load! Haha. We're still on the third month of the year and I'm just being optimistic here that maybe there'd be a time along the way that I could even read more than the goal. Right? 


The following are the things that I try so I could have a little reading time: 


Commute Reads


One of the best things that I dream that I could able to do every morning is to read a book and that's what I am trying to do despite the lack of sleep. Every commute to work is an opportunity to read a chapter or two. It boosts the happy hormones in me that I'm doing something for myself before others which is sort of a self-care ritual. 


Instead of scrolling


I'm starting to live with intention these days especially I'm focusing on self-growth to have a better future and every time I'd catch myself scrolling mindlessly on social media or even on shopping apps, I'd lock my phone and get my Kindle so I'd read even just a number of pages. So instead of feeling guilty and a little bit dumb for wasting my time, I was able to be productive even just a couple of minutes. 

But first


How many times did we tell ourselves that we can't read a book because we don't have the time? Plenty, huh? So what I'd do sometimes is to do the things I have to do for the day and push myself to finish all of them as much as possible so I could reward myself to read the printed word. I'd do this majority of the week after work so I'd feel enough for doing the best that I can and if I really can't because I have to sleep, at least, I was productive and not wasting time again on social media or doing nothing. 

Through this, I can do the next tip. 

Getting in the mood


One of the best things about getting in the mood is having an organized mind and place in which there's no clutter that would distract me from reading a book. Now that I have a clean and organized room, I'd light a scented candle which was a gift from my best friend, or burn some essential oils, relax, grab my Kindle and read. A good drink at the side makes it more rewarding. 

Although, one fact about me is that my sense of smell isn't really that good so lighting a scented candle doesn't do much of a service for me unless there's no electricity. Maybe the scented candle that I have doesn't have a strong scent that my nose can smell. Nothing to worry about, though. I don't have the virus. My nose can no longer smell that easily since pre-covid but I can still smell but kind of picky towards scents. One time when I bought a body spray, I brought my best friend along with me so she'd be the one smelling them. Haha! 

Channel Your Energy


There'd be times that we're too lazy to even do it and would just do mindless things but it's all in our mindset. If we channel our energy to do the task and focus on reading the first few pages, we won't notice that we're already halfway through the chapter especially if you're like me that I couldn't measure how short my concentration span these days. 

Being Accountable


I think there are two types of being an accountable reader. One is keeping it to him/herself like having a Goodreads account to keep track of the current reads and the reading challenge. While the other join book clubs to have a reading buddy to discuss the current read and motivate each other to pick up the slack. 

I am both but the majority of the time, I'd just keep it to myself. I followed a book club called @curlupclub by Jen Im on Instagram during the quarantine so it'd motivate me to read more or to pick ideas on what to read next but I haven't talked to the community so I couldn't call myself an active member of the club. Haha! 

I used to dream of having a book club here in the province and we'd meet once a month after reading the book of the month to discuss it. However, due to the pandemic and my current internet situation, doing it via Zoom makes it impossible and besides, I'm not yet in the phase that I can call myself as someone who can read a lot of books within a month. I'm still struggling. 

Carry it everywhere


I bring my Kindle with me whenever and wherever I go. Usually, the boring commute or lines pushes us to get the book from our bag and start reading, and doing this during the mundane hours makes living magical and I romanticize it so much. 

I hope these tips will help you and also myself to read more this year. As a bookworm, it saddens me that working in the corporate world and getting tired after the day led me to not being able to finish one book even just for a month. So here's to being hopeful and getting back on track as the bookworms we used to be! 

Happy reading! 

Trying To Pick It Up Again

Monday, March 8, 2021

Trying To Pick It Up Again | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra


As a bibliophile, people assume that we never get tired of reading, we never lose touch with the printed word, and it sucks how these assumptions could turn out to be the opposite for quite some time. It's such a nightmare to be in a reading slump. The uncertainty on how it happened demotivates me more as to why I'm in such a state. I couldn't remember when I lost motivation on reading. A novel per day, wow! That's how fast I used to read but of course, I try not to pressure myself on reading a novel per day but what I wanted is to bring my old self back into this habit. 


So lately, I've been trying my best to read as slowly as possible despite the 30 books I set for myself on Goodreads. Damn. I know, I know, what a load! Haha. We're still on the third month of the year and I'm just being optimistic here that maybe there'd be a time along the way that I could even read more than the goal. Right? 


The following are the things that I try so I could have a little reading time: 


Commute Reads


One of the best things that I dream that I could able to do every morning is to read a book and that's what I am trying to do despite the lack of sleep. Every commute to work is an opportunity to read a chapter or two. It boosts the happy hormones in me that I'm doing something for myself before others which is sort of a self-care ritual. 


Instead of scrolling


I'm starting to live with intention these days especially I'm focusing on self-growth to have a better future and every time I'd catch myself scrolling mindlessly on social media or even on shopping apps, I'd lock my phone and get my Kindle so I'd read even just a number of pages. So instead of feeling guilty and a little bit dumb for wasting my time, I was able to be productive even just a couple of minutes. 

But first


How many times did we tell ourselves that we can't read a book because we don't have the time? Plenty, huh? So what I'd do sometimes is to do the things I have to do for the day and push myself to finish all of them as much as possible so I could reward myself to read the printed word. I'd do this majority of the week after work so I'd feel enough for doing the best that I can and if I really can't because I have to sleep, at least, I was productive and not wasting time again on social media or doing nothing. 

Through this, I can do the next tip. 

Getting in the mood


One of the best things about getting in the mood is having an organized mind and place in which there's no clutter that would distract me from reading a book. Now that I have a clean and organized room, I'd light a scented candle which was a gift from my best friend, or burn some essential oils, relax, grab my Kindle and read. A good drink at the side makes it more rewarding. 

Although, one fact about me is that my sense of smell isn't really that good so lighting a scented candle doesn't do much of a service for me unless there's no electricity. Maybe the scented candle that I have doesn't have a strong scent that my nose can smell. Nothing to worry about, though. I don't have the virus. My nose can no longer smell that easily since pre-covid but I can still smell but kind of picky towards scents. One time when I bought a body spray, I brought my best friend along with me so she'd be the one smelling them. Haha! 

Channel Your Energy


There'd be times that we're too lazy to even do it and would just do mindless things but it's all in our mindset. If we channel our energy to do the task and focus on reading the first few pages, we won't notice that we're already halfway through the chapter especially if you're like me that I couldn't measure how short my concentration span these days. 

Being Accountable


I think there are two types of being an accountable reader. One is keeping it to him/herself like having a Goodreads account to keep track of the current reads and the reading challenge. While the other join book clubs to have a reading buddy to discuss the current read and motivate each other to pick up the slack. 

I am both but the majority of the time, I'd just keep it to myself. I followed a book club called @curlupclub by Jen Im on Instagram during the quarantine so it'd motivate me to read more or to pick ideas on what to read next but I haven't talked to the community so I couldn't call myself an active member of the club. Haha! 

I used to dream of having a book club here in the province and we'd meet once a month after reading the book of the month to discuss it. However, due to the pandemic and my current internet situation, doing it via Zoom makes it impossible and besides, I'm not yet in the phase that I can call myself as someone who can read a lot of books within a month. I'm still struggling. 

Carry it everywhere


I bring my Kindle with me whenever and wherever I go. Usually, the boring commute or lines pushes us to get the book from our bag and start reading, and doing this during the mundane hours makes living magical and I romanticize it so much. 

I hope these tips will help you and also myself to read more this year. As a bookworm, it saddens me that working in the corporate world and getting tired after the day led me to not being able to finish one book even just for a month. So here's to being hopeful and getting back on track as the bookworms we used to be! 

Happy reading! 
Plan With Me: Go, Grow, and Glow | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra

After having a usual weekend date with my significant other, I decided to be productive yesterday and Sundays are my self-care days - an opportunity to reset my life and prepare for the upcoming week. My self-care days could be either of these two: 1) be lazy and glorify the day to its truest purpose which is to rest or 2) be productive like doing household chores, prepare a week worth of work uniform, read a book, do journaling, and whatever tickles my fancy of what a productive day should be. 

I cleaned my bedroom, did the laundry, read a book, and wrote in my journal. After writing all my thoughts in my journal, I was planning to exercise but then, my room wasn't available for exercise because all my washed clothes were inside. Yeah, I had to hang all of my washed clothes inside so I won't have to get worried if it rains. So my only option yesterday was to take a walk around the subdivision which I did. I didn't let laziness triumph. 

While walking, I was thinking of lessons I learned during this pandemic. These lessons could be considered as cliche but as cliche, as it may sound, they're still lessons that we often take for granted. With these lessons learned, I want to share them here on the blog as slowly as possible. 

In my previous post, I mentioned that I failed to plan my 2021. However, that we're now in the third month of the year, I am hopeful that I'll be planning this year for good. I'm planning to take this project seriously which is to go, grow, and glow inside and out. This project is about me and how to make myself the best version ever that I can be within a year. 

Plan With Me: Go, Grow, and Glow | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra

Regular exercise and meditation are the habits that I'm planning to put into practice badly. Some would say why would I need exercise when I'm already skinny. I may look skinny but I am not. I don't look skinny nor fat but also, I can't say that I am the healthiest that I've ever been in terms of my physical. Going up and down the stairs has become a struggle compared to my so-called skinny days. My pants won't fit me. What's really worse is that I don't feel healthy inside. One thing that I'd like to develop in exercising is my strength. I did habit stacking which is putting a new habit on top of the old one. The old habit was exercising and I put meditation on top. The twist here is to focus more on strength training and cardio on working out and when it comes to meditation, to do it regardless if I exercised or not. 

Through these habits, I'd be developing my physical and mental well-being in order for me to glow inside and out. Putting these plans for the public to see would mean that I'm telling the Universe that this time, I mean it. I'm doing this for myself!

I'm sick with people body shaming me and looking at myself not appreciating the body that I have. There are days that I may look in the mirror looking beautiful and empowered with this body of mine but there'd also be days that my insecurities are eating me which sucks big time. I want to have a healthy body that is empowered through healthy habits like exercising and eating good food. Throughout the process, I am hoping that slowly but surely, I'll be loving my body to its full potential regardless of the rolls or muscles that I'll be having in the future. I'd love to witness my journey of how my body changes to go and grow to become the best version it could be. 

Plan With Me: Go, Grow, and Glow

Monday, March 1, 2021

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Plan With Me: Go, Grow, and Glow | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra

After having a usual weekend date with my significant other, I decided to be productive yesterday and Sundays are my self-care days - an opportunity to reset my life and prepare for the upcoming week. My self-care days could be either of these two: 1) be lazy and glorify the day to its truest purpose which is to rest or 2) be productive like doing household chores, prepare a week worth of work uniform, read a book, do journaling, and whatever tickles my fancy of what a productive day should be. 

I cleaned my bedroom, did the laundry, read a book, and wrote in my journal. After writing all my thoughts in my journal, I was planning to exercise but then, my room wasn't available for exercise because all my washed clothes were inside. Yeah, I had to hang all of my washed clothes inside so I won't have to get worried if it rains. So my only option yesterday was to take a walk around the subdivision which I did. I didn't let laziness triumph. 

While walking, I was thinking of lessons I learned during this pandemic. These lessons could be considered as cliche but as cliche, as it may sound, they're still lessons that we often take for granted. With these lessons learned, I want to share them here on the blog as slowly as possible. 

In my previous post, I mentioned that I failed to plan my 2021. However, that we're now in the third month of the year, I am hopeful that I'll be planning this year for good. I'm planning to take this project seriously which is to go, grow, and glow inside and out. This project is about me and how to make myself the best version ever that I can be within a year. 

Plan With Me: Go, Grow, and Glow | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra

Regular exercise and meditation are the habits that I'm planning to put into practice badly. Some would say why would I need exercise when I'm already skinny. I may look skinny but I am not. I don't look skinny nor fat but also, I can't say that I am the healthiest that I've ever been in terms of my physical. Going up and down the stairs has become a struggle compared to my so-called skinny days. My pants won't fit me. What's really worse is that I don't feel healthy inside. One thing that I'd like to develop in exercising is my strength. I did habit stacking which is putting a new habit on top of the old one. The old habit was exercising and I put meditation on top. The twist here is to focus more on strength training and cardio on working out and when it comes to meditation, to do it regardless if I exercised or not. 

Through these habits, I'd be developing my physical and mental well-being in order for me to glow inside and out. Putting these plans for the public to see would mean that I'm telling the Universe that this time, I mean it. I'm doing this for myself!

I'm sick with people body shaming me and looking at myself not appreciating the body that I have. There are days that I may look in the mirror looking beautiful and empowered with this body of mine but there'd also be days that my insecurities are eating me which sucks big time. I want to have a healthy body that is empowered through healthy habits like exercising and eating good food. Throughout the process, I am hoping that slowly but surely, I'll be loving my body to its full potential regardless of the rolls or muscles that I'll be having in the future. I'd love to witness my journey of how my body changes to go and grow to become the best version it could be. 

uhm, not much. | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra

It's been minutes since I started staring at this blank canvas waiting to be filled with my words. I have plans on sharing what's happening to my life lately especially the past few weeks since 2021 started but somehow, I'm out of words and at the same time, pretty excited that I'd go word-vomiting all over this space. 


So here it goes. 


What goals am I aiming for? 


I bet the majority of the population all over the world were able to make a number of goals before 2020 ended and started 2021 with a determined spirit to achieve the goals they've set for the new year but guess what, we're already on the second month and going third to this year, and I still don't have any ideas what to set for myself. I don't want to be a person that goes with the flow and really aims for something but when the pandemic happened and the rejections I got from 2020 until this month, dreaming these days feels more of a lost battle. It feels more of a dream than picturing myself living the life I want. I know that I shouldn't lose hope but right now, that's what I feel and I'm hoping I'd be able to get outside from this rotten place. 


So yeah, I still have no goals. I guess reading 30 books this year could count as one but I'm still on my second book so yeah, you could say that I am somehow demotivated despite my cheery appearance. Maybe that's a talent. 


Oh well.


I tried to apply for different positions here in the company aiming for a greener pasture or for the sake of getting more experiences that I could learn from and add to my curriculum vitae but I was rejected multiple times because I'd be utilized and optimized more in my current department. This has been a battle for me if I should share about this or not because it's work-related but it's too awful to keep to myself. One told me to aim high when I was applying for a job with the same level as mine and before this hiring, I applied for higher positions and got rejected right away. Isn't that aiming high if aiming high for that person is about a higher position and power? What if the high that I want isn't the same as his? Would I be considered as someone low just because I am chasing a different kind of high? Of course not. It's sad to say that some consider fame, power, and the title as something more worthy than anything else. 


I was also advised that I should be more and can be more but how can I do more when I don't feel that I could do anything more for myself that could contribute to a bigger population? With this, I felt that I don't have any value to give and lost confidence to defend myself because what's the point of defending myself to give justice to the reasons and thoughts in my mind when I'm already rejected? Would it change to "You're hired and we'll just reject the other candidate?" It'd be such a huge no. So why bother? 


No news is still news and when a week passed by without it, I was already moving forward. By Monday, I received the rejection email. By Tuesday, I read the announcement of the newly hired. By Wednesday, someone talked to me that totally lost my confidence and saw me getting more stuck. My boyfriend and I were on a motorcycle ride on the way home and he asked me if I'm okay and with that, I started sobbing. No one would see my tears because of the helmet so I just cried. 


However, it's not a bad life, just a bad week. I don't have much of a choice but to move forward like nothing happened and pick me up through motivating quotes and all which Pinterest offers with abundance. Now, I'm okay that I'm still on my job with new added responsibilities that I hope I can master soon. 


New phone 


I've been postponing my plan of having a new phone because I still have one that works fine despite the lack of cool features. My mindset was as long as I can use it for communication purposes, then, I'm good. But then, I got stressed every time I can't take a good picture of something or even a decent selfie so that pushed me to do an upgrade as much as possible. Although, the thing is I never imagined I'd be buying a phone beyond my usual budget. So on Valentine's day, I got myself a Vivo V20 which was released last year and it has nice specs that were worth the money. 


New theme


I haven't counted how many years already passed since I've been using my old blog's theme and back then, I didn't want to buy anything for my blog even a domain because of how inactive I am here. But hey, I'm blogging again and that's a huge improvement considering my weekly updates so I rewarded the blog a new look. I'm so thankful to the Etsy community for giving me plenty of choices to choose from that are within my budget. 


Currently reading


I'm currently reading J.K. Rowling's 'Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix' and this is the second time that I am reading the series. I started it last year when the year was about to end and with all what's happening around the world, I thought reading something comforting and fun would make me happy and that's how I'd feel every time I pick up my Kindle and start reading a chapter or two. It reminds me the little kid in me and there are even times that I'd laugh during my commute on the way to work because that's how fun the series is to me. 


I looked for a Kindle copy of  'Bear Town' by Fredrik Backman yesterday and added it to my library. I'm planning to read it this year when I stumbled upon a YT video and a blog post discussing it so it seems promising. If you've ever read the book, let me know. I'd love to hear your thoughts without spoiling me at the same time. Haha!


Feeling blessed


While I'm busy putting my thoughts here, my boyfriend is currently cooking our dinner and I'm lucky to have someone who let me use his computer so I wouldn't miss a week not updating this blog. I'm happy that I have someone who pushes and supports me to do the things that I have to do to pursue my passion. A while ago, he asked me how's my writing so far and was amazed that I was already halfway through this post. I have a cheerleader. 


I also had an unexpected Valentine's date with him. We cooked breakfast together and danced to some of the songs on the playlist I made for him when we started dating almost two years ago. We bought the new phone I was talking about here and I was so giddy that I've kept on telling him that 'wow, this is what you feel when you really have an expensive phone huh'. Haha! 


Well done! 


So when the quarantine started, my department gave me a new job so I am handling two jobs at work at the moment. Although, I haven't mastered all of the tasks to do on the new field but based from what the people from the government are saying, they appreciated what I was doing on a weekly basis. I was just doing my job and they appreciated it to the point they told my boss of this huge improvement from us. It felt nice and motivating. 


I can say that this is just a start of the many life updates that I'll be posting here on the blog. I used to love writing this kind of posts on the blog back then to connect with friends and readers. With my career, I'm not in a hurry to be promoted but what I'm looking for is the growth and the burning desire that my soul craves but in a sense that I don't want to glorify business in the corporate world or life in general as something that my life greatly depends on. I think that life doesn't have to fully revolve around it because there's more outside and I'm still growing. Maybe I just miss the grind that my body used to when I was in college and with that, I felt validated. I think I'm a bit lost with this adulting thing but hey, I'm trying. We all are. We'll find our purpose whatever that is. 


How's your life lately?

uhm, not much.

Saturday, February 20, 2021

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uhm, not much. | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra

It's been minutes since I started staring at this blank canvas waiting to be filled with my words. I have plans on sharing what's happening to my life lately especially the past few weeks since 2021 started but somehow, I'm out of words and at the same time, pretty excited that I'd go word-vomiting all over this space. 


So here it goes. 


What goals am I aiming for? 


I bet the majority of the population all over the world were able to make a number of goals before 2020 ended and started 2021 with a determined spirit to achieve the goals they've set for the new year but guess what, we're already on the second month and going third to this year, and I still don't have any ideas what to set for myself. I don't want to be a person that goes with the flow and really aims for something but when the pandemic happened and the rejections I got from 2020 until this month, dreaming these days feels more of a lost battle. It feels more of a dream than picturing myself living the life I want. I know that I shouldn't lose hope but right now, that's what I feel and I'm hoping I'd be able to get outside from this rotten place. 


So yeah, I still have no goals. I guess reading 30 books this year could count as one but I'm still on my second book so yeah, you could say that I am somehow demotivated despite my cheery appearance. Maybe that's a talent. 


Oh well.


I tried to apply for different positions here in the company aiming for a greener pasture or for the sake of getting more experiences that I could learn from and add to my curriculum vitae but I was rejected multiple times because I'd be utilized and optimized more in my current department. This has been a battle for me if I should share about this or not because it's work-related but it's too awful to keep to myself. One told me to aim high when I was applying for a job with the same level as mine and before this hiring, I applied for higher positions and got rejected right away. Isn't that aiming high if aiming high for that person is about a higher position and power? What if the high that I want isn't the same as his? Would I be considered as someone low just because I am chasing a different kind of high? Of course not. It's sad to say that some consider fame, power, and the title as something more worthy than anything else. 


I was also advised that I should be more and can be more but how can I do more when I don't feel that I could do anything more for myself that could contribute to a bigger population? With this, I felt that I don't have any value to give and lost confidence to defend myself because what's the point of defending myself to give justice to the reasons and thoughts in my mind when I'm already rejected? Would it change to "You're hired and we'll just reject the other candidate?" It'd be such a huge no. So why bother? 


No news is still news and when a week passed by without it, I was already moving forward. By Monday, I received the rejection email. By Tuesday, I read the announcement of the newly hired. By Wednesday, someone talked to me that totally lost my confidence and saw me getting more stuck. My boyfriend and I were on a motorcycle ride on the way home and he asked me if I'm okay and with that, I started sobbing. No one would see my tears because of the helmet so I just cried. 


However, it's not a bad life, just a bad week. I don't have much of a choice but to move forward like nothing happened and pick me up through motivating quotes and all which Pinterest offers with abundance. Now, I'm okay that I'm still on my job with new added responsibilities that I hope I can master soon. 


New phone 


I've been postponing my plan of having a new phone because I still have one that works fine despite the lack of cool features. My mindset was as long as I can use it for communication purposes, then, I'm good. But then, I got stressed every time I can't take a good picture of something or even a decent selfie so that pushed me to do an upgrade as much as possible. Although, the thing is I never imagined I'd be buying a phone beyond my usual budget. So on Valentine's day, I got myself a Vivo V20 which was released last year and it has nice specs that were worth the money. 


New theme


I haven't counted how many years already passed since I've been using my old blog's theme and back then, I didn't want to buy anything for my blog even a domain because of how inactive I am here. But hey, I'm blogging again and that's a huge improvement considering my weekly updates so I rewarded the blog a new look. I'm so thankful to the Etsy community for giving me plenty of choices to choose from that are within my budget. 


Currently reading


I'm currently reading J.K. Rowling's 'Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix' and this is the second time that I am reading the series. I started it last year when the year was about to end and with all what's happening around the world, I thought reading something comforting and fun would make me happy and that's how I'd feel every time I pick up my Kindle and start reading a chapter or two. It reminds me the little kid in me and there are even times that I'd laugh during my commute on the way to work because that's how fun the series is to me. 


I looked for a Kindle copy of  'Bear Town' by Fredrik Backman yesterday and added it to my library. I'm planning to read it this year when I stumbled upon a YT video and a blog post discussing it so it seems promising. If you've ever read the book, let me know. I'd love to hear your thoughts without spoiling me at the same time. Haha!


Feeling blessed


While I'm busy putting my thoughts here, my boyfriend is currently cooking our dinner and I'm lucky to have someone who let me use his computer so I wouldn't miss a week not updating this blog. I'm happy that I have someone who pushes and supports me to do the things that I have to do to pursue my passion. A while ago, he asked me how's my writing so far and was amazed that I was already halfway through this post. I have a cheerleader. 


I also had an unexpected Valentine's date with him. We cooked breakfast together and danced to some of the songs on the playlist I made for him when we started dating almost two years ago. We bought the new phone I was talking about here and I was so giddy that I've kept on telling him that 'wow, this is what you feel when you really have an expensive phone huh'. Haha! 


Well done! 


So when the quarantine started, my department gave me a new job so I am handling two jobs at work at the moment. Although, I haven't mastered all of the tasks to do on the new field but based from what the people from the government are saying, they appreciated what I was doing on a weekly basis. I was just doing my job and they appreciated it to the point they told my boss of this huge improvement from us. It felt nice and motivating. 


I can say that this is just a start of the many life updates that I'll be posting here on the blog. I used to love writing this kind of posts on the blog back then to connect with friends and readers. With my career, I'm not in a hurry to be promoted but what I'm looking for is the growth and the burning desire that my soul craves but in a sense that I don't want to glorify business in the corporate world or life in general as something that my life greatly depends on. I think that life doesn't have to fully revolve around it because there's more outside and I'm still growing. Maybe I just miss the grind that my body used to when I was in college and with that, I felt validated. I think I'm a bit lost with this adulting thing but hey, I'm trying. We all are. We'll find our purpose whatever that is. 


How's your life lately?

Longing | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra


Since the pandemic happened, a lot has changed and I can't picture that we're out of the woods yet anytime soon. Almost everything that we do for a living transformed and somehow, I'd sigh hoping to get back to our old lives regardless of how stressful it'd be. When the quarantine started, we were in a lockdown and ought to stay at home all the time. At first, it was such a breeze to take a rest from work and the stressful activities like the daily commute. Sometimes, I'd agree with the posts I see on social media that life back then isn't something we'll look for because the daily hustle of chasing time to get on the bus so we won't be late for work isn't something we want in our lives. Who would want to be squished with bodies early in the morning just to arrive at work on time despite how unsafe the commute could be? No one, right? 


I have this longing, longing for the days way before covid happened. How I wish I had more time to prepare for what's to happen than to feel stuck in uncertainty amidst this pandemic. There was even a time during the lockdown that maybe this was just a dream but in reality, it hurts to know that we already have this new normal which is not really that normal. 


Looking back on photos feels like they were taken a decade ago but in fact, it was just like a year ago. Sometimes, I'd check on my phone's gallery and see these photos were taken weeks before the quarantine and how surreal everything had been. The occasional dates my boyfriend and I'd spend through thorough planning or just by impulse came into a blur now. I don't even know what KFC food tastes like nowadays. However, we were able to avoid fast food now because of this pandemic and opt for little restaurants in town and prefer home dates over any kind of date just to be safe from the virus and exposure to people. One thing that I want to grasp this year despite the pandemic is to be more with nature. Maybe this is the time to discover more of what the province has to offer. Nothing fancy and grand but as simple as going to the nearby beach, if possible, is something I'd love to experience.  


Keeping in touch with friends during this pandemic made me realize that I am only friends with some of them because of the job, not because we'd like to meet and have a talk. When the quarantine started, I'd send them memes and ask how they're doing but if I won't do any first move to keep the friendship going, there won't be any conversation in the first place. This was something I shared with Da on one of our new year resolution activities. I answered a question asking what's something I went low key last year and had no plans on picking up this year and we had the same answer which was keeping in touch with whom we thought our friends. I know we've all been busy and taking care of ourselves since the quarantine and due to the safety protocols being implemented outside, it seems going out and catching up with another makes it almost impossible but a simple "How are you?" means something especially on the right time. 


A quick escape from the hustle and the buzz of life seems so impossible if the only choice is just to stay at home. Back then, I'd travel from one town to another and hang out with myself or with people. I'd do window shopping just to see the latest trends that may tickle my fancy and later on, grateful for the extra steps roaming around the mall. I miss the moments when my boyfriend and I'd do our grocery shopping together and be shocked at how much we've spent on items that our fingers could count on. Through this, we felt the essence of being an adult but now, we'd do pasabuy - something that we do as a favor if someone is going to the same store that we've planned on going to in order to save time on lines, fare, and the energy. Buying something online became much easier these days with just one click and approval from a PIN that turned out the development of a toxic habit of instant gratification. How many times did we regret buying one thing or two just because? Are we even that mindful these days? Or is it because we've been staying at home a lot these days that even the day becomes a blur? 


I'm longing for the day when life goes back to a good normal without the increasing rates of death due to the pandemic, a time when we can go from point A to B without the needed protocols and expensive documents to comply with, a time when we can enjoy warm gatherings with the people we love without worrying if we already have the virus, and when necessities are being priced at a just amount and not because everyone has been using the pandemic as an excuse to increase its price that would make living more difficult. I'm longing for a normal that has the compassion, resilience, and warmth that we've learned from this hardship. Let our longings and learnings from these uncertainties be our tools to survive to reach whatever we want to achieve at our own pace regardless of how difficult in this new normal. 

Longing

Thursday, February 11, 2021

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Longing | Indie Spirit by Augustin Ra


Since the pandemic happened, a lot has changed and I can't picture that we're out of the woods yet anytime soon. Almost everything that we do for a living transformed and somehow, I'd sigh hoping to get back to our old lives regardless of how stressful it'd be. When the quarantine started, we were in a lockdown and ought to stay at home all the time. At first, it was such a breeze to take a rest from work and the stressful activities like the daily commute. Sometimes, I'd agree with the posts I see on social media that life back then isn't something we'll look for because the daily hustle of chasing time to get on the bus so we won't be late for work isn't something we want in our lives. Who would want to be squished with bodies early in the morning just to arrive at work on time despite how unsafe the commute could be? No one, right? 


I have this longing, longing for the days way before covid happened. How I wish I had more time to prepare for what's to happen than to feel stuck in uncertainty amidst this pandemic. There was even a time during the lockdown that maybe this was just a dream but in reality, it hurts to know that we already have this new normal which is not really that normal. 


Looking back on photos feels like they were taken a decade ago but in fact, it was just like a year ago. Sometimes, I'd check on my phone's gallery and see these photos were taken weeks before the quarantine and how surreal everything had been. The occasional dates my boyfriend and I'd spend through thorough planning or just by impulse came into a blur now. I don't even know what KFC food tastes like nowadays. However, we were able to avoid fast food now because of this pandemic and opt for little restaurants in town and prefer home dates over any kind of date just to be safe from the virus and exposure to people. One thing that I want to grasp this year despite the pandemic is to be more with nature. Maybe this is the time to discover more of what the province has to offer. Nothing fancy and grand but as simple as going to the nearby beach, if possible, is something I'd love to experience.  


Keeping in touch with friends during this pandemic made me realize that I am only friends with some of them because of the job, not because we'd like to meet and have a talk. When the quarantine started, I'd send them memes and ask how they're doing but if I won't do any first move to keep the friendship going, there won't be any conversation in the first place. This was something I shared with Da on one of our new year resolution activities. I answered a question asking what's something I went low key last year and had no plans on picking up this year and we had the same answer which was keeping in touch with whom we thought our friends. I know we've all been busy and taking care of ourselves since the quarantine and due to the safety protocols being implemented outside, it seems going out and catching up with another makes it almost impossible but a simple "How are you?" means something especially on the right time. 


A quick escape from the hustle and the buzz of life seems so impossible if the only choice is just to stay at home. Back then, I'd travel from one town to another and hang out with myself or with people. I'd do window shopping just to see the latest trends that may tickle my fancy and later on, grateful for the extra steps roaming around the mall. I miss the moments when my boyfriend and I'd do our grocery shopping together and be shocked at how much we've spent on items that our fingers could count on. Through this, we felt the essence of being an adult but now, we'd do pasabuy - something that we do as a favor if someone is going to the same store that we've planned on going to in order to save time on lines, fare, and the energy. Buying something online became much easier these days with just one click and approval from a PIN that turned out the development of a toxic habit of instant gratification. How many times did we regret buying one thing or two just because? Are we even that mindful these days? Or is it because we've been staying at home a lot these days that even the day becomes a blur? 


I'm longing for the day when life goes back to a good normal without the increasing rates of death due to the pandemic, a time when we can go from point A to B without the needed protocols and expensive documents to comply with, a time when we can enjoy warm gatherings with the people we love without worrying if we already have the virus, and when necessities are being priced at a just amount and not because everyone has been using the pandemic as an excuse to increase its price that would make living more difficult. I'm longing for a normal that has the compassion, resilience, and warmth that we've learned from this hardship. Let our longings and learnings from these uncertainties be our tools to survive to reach whatever we want to achieve at our own pace regardless of how difficult in this new normal. 

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